Life as a Paramedic Wife

Cooking, cleaning, ironing, laundry, errands, grocery shopping, meal planning/prepping, taking care of the kids, solo bed time routine, dr appointments, entertaining the kids, keeping track of bills and finances, organizing, sleeping ( a little bit) and loving.

Now, I know that I choose to do all of these things and take a lot of these things upon myself. I wouldn't have it any other way. I enjoy taking care of my family and showing my love by actions. Some wives just take care of household and kids and the husband takes care of his own food, laundry, ironing and whatever else he needs. I think there is nothing wrong with that. As a couple, you do what works best for you. What works best for us is the system we have. It sounds exhausting and draining and it is. But it brings me so much joy. Last night I was in the kitchen at 8:30 washing all of Patricks lunch containers so I could fill them up with yummy food for the next day. He thought I was making a snack for myself and when he came in to the kitchen, he realized I was packing his lunch. The smile on his face and look in his eyes said it all and that moment was worth it to me. Its worth waking up at 5:30am to get his coffee and breakfast ready (some mornings) and to go to bed at 9:30 so that I can get his lunch ready for him. His smile and happiness, during the most stressful and time consuming thing he has ever done in his life, drive me to keep doing what I am doing.

I need to stay productive and I don't do well sitting around. For a couple months I have been mentally checking out because I am so overwhelmed by life right now. It's just a lot. Being home alone with both kids and feeling the weight of everything while Patrick is gone a lot and unavailable because he has to focus on getting through school was taking a toll on me. I found myself cruising through social media to fill my thoughts with other peoples happiness and joy in life and I just kept thinking how much I wanted that. I wasn't creating that happiness for myself, I was just watching it in other people. I came across one of my friends' Instagram and her feed is just full of smiles and adventures and it made me snap out of what was going on. I reflected on the last few months and thought about what does my life look like day in and day out. I decided to change some things and make life look like how I wanted it to. I think some people miss my activity on social media and my videos I was making and all that but honestly, that was draining me. I need to spend my time with my kids and doing productive things to stay on top of everything we have going on. I have found more happiness and joy. Yes, my days are still tough and I still get really frustrated with the kids or schedule sometimes but that will happen regardless of my circumstances. I just know what I need to do for me and my family and that is what I am doing.

I won't be as active on my YouTube channel or my Instagram stories. I will continue to post photos and videos when I can. It's hard to truly enjoy and experience things when I am just trying to capture the perfect picture or video. I love recording memories but I love experiencing the memories more.

Life is busy and I love it. I don't do well when I don't feel like I am living out my purpose. My purpose is to be a mother, a wife, a friend, a sister and a hairstylist. My passion for styling hair and my dream of having my own business again doing hair for weddings and events is coming true! I am so excited for 2019 and what I will accomplish this year. My good friend and I had a business together and I left it when I moved to CO. I never thought I would get it back. Well, I am <3 The girl who took over the business is moving out of state and is no longer able to keep up on the business so I will be taking over it again. I can not WAIT to start doing what I love again!

I am praising God for the constant blessings that have already come only 7 days into the new year. My family is happy and healthy and that is what brings me joy.