Lead Me as I Seek You

We are coming into an exciting season of life. It feels so good to be at this place in life. Looking back even a year ago, I couldn't imagine being where we are now. A year ago I was still broken over losing my grandma and didn't know how to get back on my feet. When Patrick and I moved to Colorado, I started to trust God more and build my relationship back up with him. Here we are a year later, 2 healthy kids, living in our own place, Patrick has a job that provides enough for me to be a stay at home mom, all of our needs are met. We are ready to bloom where we are planted. We are ready to start making an impact in our community and to grow our circle of friends.

Starting off this year, I have been reading every morning and journaling. I missed a few days over the last month but I didn't let that discourage me. I have already seen growth in myself in just this last month since spending more time in prayer in listening to Gods purpose for me. One of the purposes I know he has for me is to be a wife and mother. I have been focusing on being present with my kids and helping them grow and learn. Also, providing healthy balanced meals for them and for Patrick and I. As a wife I am working on being more loving and making more time for my husband even though I am EXHAUSTED at the end of the day. I make sure he comes home to a clean home and wakes up to a clean home. I know he is very appreciative of everything I do and he contributes every opportunity he has. I feel like we make a pretty great team. I have noticed what a BIG difference it makes if I don't have my time in the morning to read, journal and plan my day out. I read a book once (I believe it was Creative Counterpart by Linda Dillow) and it talked about the mother can set the tone for the house. So, starting your morning with preparing yourself for the day makes for a better day. There are days that I start it off good then things happen throughout the day that throw everything off but, I handle it a lot better and have a lot more patience.

For the last few years we have been thinking about leading a small group. When we were at our old church, Crosspoint, we were on the path to becoming small group leaders. We were waiting for the right timing. I wanted to make sure I was mostly healed from losing my grandma and had worked through all of life challenges that year. I was not in a position to lead when I was angry at God and couldn't lead myself. Now that I am in a much better place emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally, I am ready to lead. We have always felt called to lead young couples and college age students. Just help them through life. How to make big decisions responsibly, how to seek God and what it looks life to truly live life His way, how to respond to the road blocks that life puts in your way, how to keep moving along God's path even when you feel so weighed down and can barely keep your eyes open and just how to adult. Not that we have it all figured out but, we have been through a lot together as well as in our individual lives. We are ready to share our experiences with other people and to shepard them and guide them. We hope that God can use our stories to bring others closer to Him and that we can help people through their storms.

When I was in ministry before it was the greatest feeling for me. I thrived off of it. It kept me accountable in my own walk with God and I get so energized talking about life with people. I guess you could say I get that from my Grandma. She was a great counselor and leader. She also was great at listening and giving advice. I would love to carry on her legacy of helping people.

I can't wait to see what changes come this year! I am excited for this next season of life and ready to get some joy back after the last few years.