5 Years Later

Marriage has been quite the ride the past 5 years. Our first year was really rough trying to adjust and work through a lot of issues I had from past relationships. I never questioned if we would make it through the rough patches. I knew I had a man that was dedicated. Not just to the marriage but to me. He was dedicated to take care of me and to love me unconditionally. To love me even at my worst. He has done just that these past 5 years and still does today. 

5 years ago when we got married we had visioned that we would have our family started with at least one child and blissfully married living in a house. We had one thing right... we started our family. We’re still working on the rest of that vision. We are just coming out of the roughest season our marriage has been through! 

So, to say it’s blissful right now isn’t completely true. I am more in love with my husband now then I was 5 years ago. I just don’t feel the bliss yet. Shortly after losing my grandma is when I was at my worst. I did not treat my husband well and I was very selfish and bitter. Through all of my mistakes and darkness my husband was there the entire time. Never leaving my side regardless of how unlovable I was. To experience a love like that is not something some people get to experience. I can feel the bliss coming on as we are coming out of that season and creating a new home out here in Colorado. Watching him be the loving and caring father he is to both of our children gives me the butterflies. He works hard to provide for us so we have everything we need and more. I am excited to move out of my parents house and into our own little place we can call home with our completed family. December can not come soon enough! I am so in love with our apartment we are moving to and can’t wait to make it our own.  

The thing that has helped us the most get through the last 5 years of marriage was our church community, counseling and advice/guidance from our close friends and family. I don’t think we could have gotten through the trials without those people. There were many times we ran out of words to say to each other and didn’t know how to comfort one another. Some nights ended in tears and hurt and some nights ended with cuddles and laughter. We have had more good nights then bad. One thing we have learned is to always forgive and show grace. We know we are going to hurt each other and say things that are unloving. To be able to truley forgive each other and move past the situation gives us peace and helps us to appreciate each other more. We are always willling to fight through any trial and storm because we know it’s worth it and that marriage takes a lot of work from both people. 

My husband is a strong and courageous leader for our family. He always seeks God when it comes to big life dicisions. He always honors my opinions and desires. His selflessness shows everyday. Not to mention I think he is the most handsome man I have ever met! I am blessed to call him my husband. 

Cheers 🥂 to a lifetime of memories together. I couldn’t live this life with you babe, I love you so much.