A Diamond in the Rough

Everyday, I have a little camera shutter sound going off in my head as I capture the moments I have with my kids. I never want it to end. I want to make the best lifestyle for my family and to raise my kids with so much love and care. Sometimes it is hard to see that my life is so sweet. It makes the bitter times of life worth every ounce of sweat that I shed fighting through the hard times. Its like finding a diamond in the rough.

Recently I have really gotten into Yoga! I have done it before, but I can't say that I have ever truly experienced it the way I did until recently. For the first time in my life I was so happy with my body. I was proud of my body for the strength it has. The beauty it has to carry and nurture 2 humans. Even after having 2 babies back to back my body still has the strength it did before I had them. If anything, I think my body is stronger because of what it's been through. I could hold all of the yoga poses and I felt confident doing so. I rarely lost my balance and afterwards I felt so good. It got me thinking a lot about life. I haven't ever taken care of myself or have found value in myself.

I want to create a lifestyle for me and my family that teaches us to take care of our bodies. Not just physically but, emotionally, spiritually and mentally. Watching what we are feeding our bodies and what we do to them. Exercising them to make them stronger so that we can fight through anything that life throws our way. Same thing spiritually and mentally. Growing and exercising our minds and hearts to get stronger.

When I was doing Yoga, I thought about how it resembles to me getting through life. In Yoga, you DRIP SWEAT! Im not talking about breaking a sweat, you look like you just got out of a pool! Its tough! Holding your body up in certain poses and fighting through the burn your muscles feel. It took everything in me to not leave the 95 degree heated yoga room to take a breath of fresh air. I did it, I stayed in the whole time and did all of the yoga poses and got through it. I was strong enough and my body didn't fail me. That encouraged to take better care of my body. In life, it takes everything out of me to fight through things. I am aching and dripping in sweat but I know I can get through it. As long as I continue to train myself and strengthen myself, I can go through things better. We have a long road ahead of us for the next couple years as we settle into a career and we continue to live with my parents through paramedic school. I have a lot of hard times ahead as finances are EXTREMELY tight and my family needs me to help carry us through this. I need to be the support and encourager for my husband. I need to take care of my kids and teach them things as they grow into their own person. I have a lot of responsibilities as a wife and mother coming up. So, I need to start training now. I know after all of this blood, sweat and tears I will find a diamond in the rough.

We will have our own beautiful home with a backyard for the kids to play in. Our kids will have toys and bikes and they're favorite things. They will get to experience life with us and explore things for the first time. We will get there together as a family.